Reflecting Over My Life
Have you ever just sat back reflecting on your life and how God has brought you through? Well that’s exactly what I am doing today. Thinking about the goodness of God. How he keeps on blessing me and providing for me. I thought that I was living out my purpose by being married and having a family. Going to church and serving in the church. But obviously that was not the case. Four years into my marriage I realized that I was not happy and doing this by myself and not with God in the middle left me feeling like I was missing something. I became mean and dark. Living in the shadows of my husband. Insecure about my weight and how I looked. But my God! When he said that he would restore all that was taken from me I didn’t know what that really meant or looked like.
I began to pray fervently and seek after God like never before. I knew that it was more to life than this. Things began to change. I began to change and in the mist of everything the devil was trying to break me down. He was trying to isolate me thinking that no one else was going through anything like I was so therefore I couldn’t tell anyone what was going on in my life. I stayed consistent searching for what God wanted from me. Even though I was hurt by my husband leaving my daughter and I, God began to reveal things to me left and right and help me heal from that situation.
One day during my quite time with my Father he spoke so clearly to me, Shaletha where I am taking you, he couldn’t go. And that statement right there is what made me accept that God had something better planned for me. That is helping divorce women around the world by sharing my story of how God began to transform me from the inside out. Learning how to seek him and only him. Learning how to love yourself for who he created you to be. And to show how following our Father is the only way to live!
Below is a picture of me seven years ago surrounded by negative energy and a negative thought life. And beside it is a picture of me now surrounded by God’s love, peace, joy, and happiness. Looking at that picture was very eye opening for me. It showed me how being in the wrong relationship can cause you to turn into someone else. Leave you looking like someone else. It can have you feeling lost, unsure of yourself, and hopeless. But my God is a good God and an awesome God who truly stands by his words. I give God all the glory for allowing me to overcome those battles with healing and deliverance. In Isaiah 61:3 “God states that He will give you beauty for ashes.” (NKJV) and I strongly believe that.