I tried everything that I could to save my marriage. Even though I had legal right to leave my husband for committing adultery I didn’t leave. I did not want to take my daughter away from her father, so I stayed and continued to live with the physical, and mental abuse while enduring consistent manipulation.
When I found out that my husband cheated on me and had a baby on the side I was in complete shock. I called his mom because I was so confused and didn’t know what to think about the news that I had just received. She proceeded to tell me that I was in the wrong and that I should figure out why my husband was cheating on me. Who says that to another women, is all I could think!
No matter what happens in a relationship no one should be lying and committing adultery in their marriage and making excuses for their behavior. I played a part in my actions and was wrong sometimes during the marriage, but I was loyal and never compromised the vows that I made to him and to God.
The enemy tried to isolate me. The enemy tried to take me out. The enemy got in my mind and I started believing the lies that he was planting. I didn’t have many friends and I didn’t have anyone to give me sound advice on what to do in my situation. So I began to wear a mask. Most days I didn’t know if I was coming or going. I carried his lie for the fear of shame, and it began to eat away at me. Not realizing that this was not my burden to carry.
So, I started praying and crying out to God to heal my marriage and for my husband to love me. To heal me so that I could love my husband again. For him to restore my marriage because he said that he will restore everything that was lost and will make all things new. -Deuteronomy 30:3-13. God wants to hear from you. God wants us to cry out to him. Not just when things are going wrong but, in those times, when everything is going right. He does not judge our sins over the other. And he loves us the same today as he did yesterday.
Scripture consistently communicates that marriage is a lifelong commitment. Jesus described the relationship between husband and wife in Matthew 19:6: “So they are no longer two, but one flesh. Therefore, what God has joined together, let no one separate.” Now don’t get me wrong in marriage there will be some disappointments and you will not always see eye to eye but that does not mean that you are to seek other companionship or divorce simply because you are not getting everything you want out of your marriage.
In order for God to heal your broken heart you will need to give him all of the broken pieces. We serve a God that wants to heal the broken hearten and bind up our wounds. Healing is a process and it takes time. It does not happen overnight or even the next week. God wanted me to see that he truly does love me. God wanted me to know in my heart that he loved me. God wanted me to know that I can depend on him to take care of me. And God wants you to know that He loves you too! So, the question is will you allow God to heal your broken heart?
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18